Forcing laughters, faking smiles

2012-02-11T21:29:00.006+08:00

looking through my blog posts about korea and i miss korea so fucking much.... wish i could just migrate there lol. sorry for being so lazy to blog about the other days when i was in korea..... maybe next time cuz i'm sec4 this year and there is no time as there are so many fucking things to do. i'm going c r a z y.

k bye

~~i guess i'm just a nobody then.~~

2011-12-30T13:29:00.031+08:00

25/12/2011 (Christmas!) - Dongdaemun + Jeju
P/s. I miss korea already T___T

hyunbin standee! hahaha instead of seeing korean stars around, i'm seeing standees ._.

That shop with quite alot of people is the shop which sells souvenirs and abit of kpop stuffs! It's also where I bought kpop stuffs.

This stall in another building selling kpop stuffs too! Didn't have much time to look though.. Had to eat lunch and leave the place already :(

I almost died when I saw this, I thought this + rice was gonna be our lunch LOL. EVERYTHING'S LIKE VEG?!?! But in the end our lunch is bibimbap hahaha.

Bought these from the shop I mentioned above. SHINee for Shing-E and Beast for me! ^^

When I saw the building with 'cube' word ontop I almost died LOL I thought it was cube entertainment's building but it's not right!

hai thar HAHAHAHHAHAHA

Reached jeju, went to some idk what place is that. It was at night so I couldn't really see anything, and it was freezing (cuz it was near the sea) and I was freaking freezing so I ran back to the bus! There was also alot of people and do you know how much I hate crowds?

Went to watch a show called Fantastick. It was nice ^^ Couldn't bring camera in though!

View from hotel room!

Oh, beast was at Lotte Hotel in Seoul (for some press conference) while I was at Lotte Hotel in Jeju -_-

love my pink luggage ~

Bought this from the "kpop shop"! Gonna spam my room wall with all the posters LOL

/waiting very patiently for beast airlines in sg!

Bought this top too :3

End of 25th dec. Too lazy to continue + gotta go out. BAI!!!

2011-12-27T21:04:00.043+08:00

24/12/2011

Went ski-ing at the resort nearby! No pictures because I was busy ski-ing LOL and they're in my dad's camera! I LOVE TO SKI! Damn fun LOL.

Anyway, while walking to the Ski Resort, there was a shop playing Dreaming, and then while I was ski-ing, they were playing Fiction. OTL OTL OTL what are they trying to do to me???

Looks like it's snowing but it's not lol. Is the wind blowing the snow from the ground.

Went up the bus and... the water i left there turned into ice \o/

Seriously my pimple is damn annoying, can't it just disappear?!?!

After lunch, went to Yeoju Premium Outlets.

Only bought a wallet from Accessorize :( Usual price was 30000 won but there was 70% off so it became 9000 won!!! \o/

I love pepero ^^ And I had a hard time buying this from Family Mart cuz the person dont understand what I was saying... OTL

Hot chocolate!

Hi mari. If you're seeing this HAHAHA

Hotel!

Went to the hotel's restaurant for dinner!

On-ed the tv and saw kikwang and I spazzed kekeke.

Will post about the other days when I'm not lazy.... LOL

Bye yeom!!!!

p/s. there's a kinda good looking guy in my tour group HAHA OK BYE

SEOUL

2011-12-23T22:41:00.033+08:00

My new bb, which I got the day before I left for Seoul!

Left singapore for Seoul yesterday... 22/12/2011

The crystals(?) that form on the window! LOL

They have SHINee album!!! But no beast :(

View from the plane few hours before we arrived!!

The plane ride was about 6 hours long hehe. And once we reached the airport (about 9/10), there was internet!!! So tweeted and then we ran out of the airport to the bus. WAH COLD MAN LOL. Oh when the plane landed, I said to my brothers: " OMG I'M BREATHING THE SAME AIR AS BEAST " and they were like " uh.......? " then I said " Nevermind, you guys won't understand " lol.

Checked in at Paradise Hotel ^^

View from my room ~

And yeah, selca hahaha. Ignore my pimple -_-

23/12/2011

Outfit for the day!

Went to some observation place to look at North korea lol.

This is how the north korean elementary school kids's classrooms look like (if I'm not wrong)

What a house of typical north koreans look like.

Went to some Skin Anniversary place and got free facial hahaha.

And guess what I saw? Miss A standees HAHAHA. I only know Suzy and Min though! I don't really know what Jia and Fei look like :/

Suzy!!!!!

Min!!!!!

This is Jia if I'm not wrong! (Lol I googled to double check)

Suzy again!!! She's so pretty!

And I took picture... with the standees (lmao... i know) but it's in my dad's cam. Hehehe.

Now I'm currently in Intercontinental (Alpensia Pyeongchang Resort) Hotel. It's awesome!!! There's like a part filled with snow and yeah we walked around instead of going to some water park. COLD LIKE ASDGHJKZCBNM!!!!! Here's some pictures.

Went to some shop that look like 711 nearby!

Bought strawberry milk ^^ It's nice!

Hahaha anyway, when I first stepped into the hotel room, I opened the window and heard them playing Beast's Fiction!!! Omg, lucky or what? Oh yeah after walking around then we headed back to the hotel and I on-ed the Tv and saw Beast again LOL. Then Mubank started and I watched till Miss A's part and had to leave for dinner :'( But I saw Beast's cut and I screamed HAHAHA. Anyway I already watched their performance on youtube and one word, DAEBAK.

Okay Apink News is showing on tv rn. And I'm going ski-ing tomorrow, excited hehe. Goodnight!!!!!! ♡ xo

and, i did this on the bus hehehe.

2011-12-19T19:08:00.002+08:00

I was looking through pictures of cobi and found some heehee. He was so young and small then.... I just realised how much he's grown. Wow. I don't want him to grow older....

2011-12-13T15:08:00.003+08:00

so excited for tomorrow!!! gonna have dinner with the volleyball girls and then we'll be exchanging our gifts ^^ who's gonna get the present that i'm holding huh? hehehehe. this is the first time i actually wrapped a present on my own and i tied the ribbon myself okay!!! *proud*

haha so yeah. and im supposed to do my homework today but guess what, i got distracted. by apink videos .____. but they're really damn cute okay. uh oh im turning lesbian :o haha oh yes, and i ordered beast's season greetings ($42). IM OFFICIALLY BROKE RN. i guess i wont be going shopping anymore for the rest of this year...... and i have to stop buying merchandises okthxbye.

oh and i did an edit yesterday and i'm so proud of myself LOL. i took like 1 hour!!!!

original:

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2011-12-10T19:26:00.002+08:00

the 'I M FAT' shirt i got from my brother :p

looookie at cobi. he was half asleep, this qtp. hehehe.

so i went to the travel agency today for some briefing. was supposed to collect my trouble maker album today but since i had to get my luggage too, had to cancel the meetup and meet tmrw instead (AT TAMPINES!!!!! zzz) sigh. nevermind, the poster and album really daebak ^^ had korean food for lunch yay ~ and then ate strawberry+mango snow ice ^^ went to OG to get mine and dad's luggage. MINE'S HOT PINK HEHEHE. finally have my own luggage. yeah and headed to j8 for grocery shopping. bought lotsa cup noodles /; COULDN'T RESIST.

sigh i think i'm gonna die early kekeke

2011-12-06T02:55:00.002+08:00

haiiiii people.

i know i've been kinda dead on twitter hehehe cuz i'm using like another account. you can follow me at @supseob ^^ but i think it's better not to follow me because i don't want someeee people to look at it and then bitch about me. it's mostly about beast/other kpop stuffs though so yeah doubt most of you will be interested anyway....

i created a heello too.

http://heello.com/ohmyseob

might be moving thr if more people join hehehe.

for now, i shall be spazzing and talking to myself thr.

yes okay bye.

2011-12-05T02:59:00.011+08:00

Before I go to sleep, just wanna post up some of my edits which I did today hehehe. I gained like around 4 followers today? And yeah, I have like 105 followers now ^^ Have to make more gifs/edits to gain more followers, and obviously, I have to improve on my edits hehe;)

This is my first ever edit, which I did a few days back. Just realised that a part of Hyuna's arm got cut off. Ughhhh stupid lasso tool.

And these are the rest which I did today:

Maybe I should have placed the bottom one at the top instead, don't you think so?

For the last edit, I think I'm gonna upload it on tumblr another day ^^ I've a feeling that I shouldn't have placed the line " Singing is my everything " at the top left hand corner. But I can't change it now........ ugh

Yeah k, a boring post I know. Hahaha goodnight people!

2011-12-04T02:30:00.004+08:00

Troublemaker is stuck in my head ~ I really like the whistling part, damn nice. But why everyone say annoying? It's damn unique and did I mention, nice? Hahaha. The whole song and MV is fucking awesome so you should go and watch the MV on youtube nowww go go go ^^

Anyway I downloaded photoshop tutorial and here's one of my edits.

Maybe I should stop making edits.... my gifs get so much more notes than my edits. Le sigh.

I've got nothing else to blog about :/ Gonna watch Apink News now! :P

2011-11-29T23:48:00.005+08:00

Today is really the fucking best day of my life. DAEBAK (y)

Watched #MAMA2011 which happened in Singapore on tv and spazzed like mad. Mom and dad watched it with me hahahaha and they kept giving me the looks when I shouted "Beast!!!!!!!!" before the person announced the winner for each category (that Beast is nominated in). Plus they even asked me "why didn't you go?". I'm like..... "don't say anymore". In my heart I'm screaming because I really wanted to go but I thought they wouldn't allow me. FML FML FML.

Anyway, Beast won the award for Best Dance Performance!!!!!!!

Congrats Beast ♥

Hahaha this was Shindong and Eunhyuk when Beast went to receive their award.

They're dancing to Beast's "Soom/Breath" lmfao.

Beast performed Fiction (Orchestra Version) and halfway, they stopped and showed Hyunseung and Hyuna, some teaser for Trouble Maker I guess, and it wasn't a video. It was LIVE. Guess what? They kissed.
It was totally, freaking unexpected......

Look at this, this was during the red carpet,

See the distance between Beast and Hyunseung + Hyuna? Hahaha.

And I support cube/acube for life!!!!
Best Male New Artist - Huh Gak
Best Female New Artist - A Pink
Best Dance Performance (Male) - BEAST
Best Dance Performance (Solo): HyunA

Hehe here are some pictures/gifs during the red carpet and when the screen showed Beast while another group was performing. All taken from Tumblr;)

I caught your kiss yoseob hehehe.
Dongseob moment;)

Dooseob moment at the ending. Hahaha I think they were like super high or something.

That's all for nowwww, wait for my fancam! Kekeke.

2011-11-29T14:22:00.006+08:00

29 November 2011: My life is complete.

I saw ot6, I am so freaking happy Kikwang managed to make it. Those people who were spreading rumors that he isn't coming should just fuck offffffffff. I mean if not confirmed then don't anyhow can?

I'll upload my fancams later once I figure out how to watermark them hehe. One of them can see all the members and another is Yoseob focus (with a little Kikwang). Hahaha damn funny, the only person I kept shouting "Oppa saranghae!!!" to is Yoseob because he kept waving and like, he was the most hyper among the rest. The rest were freaking tired I guess so they didn't wave, but it's alright, I really understand. Dongwoon waved once though! I think it must really sucked to have so many girls screaming into your face when you're already freaking tired. From Las Vegas - Seoul - Singapore, that must be freaking tiring... To Beast: I'm really sorry if I did anything to piss you guys off or something :/

Yoseob. Looked. Into. My. Eyes. And. Waved. I swear, I really swear. MY BIAS OH MY GOD. My mood was totally ruined that day due to certain things and he freaking cheered me up, just by one simple action. I'm really glad he made it a point to wave and look at us although he was really tired. I love him. I love Beast.

So I met Rachel (Yongcola) and Jueyu (Locketyangg) at Changi Airport Terminal 3 at about 7pm. I really doubted the fact that people said their arrival time was 6am. Like how can? Plus I almost cried when I saw Yoseob's tweet at around 6plus because I thought they arrived already. But no, they were actually in Seoul, to pick Kikwang up!!! I am so freaking glad I saw Rachel's post on tumblr that she wanted to go and welcome Beast, so I replied to her post and yeah, we decided to go together ^^ First we went to Macs for dinner, then we went to some observatory? I'm not sure what's it called. We watched MBLAQ's version of ShinPD till about 9, and then we saw tweets stating that A Pink should be arriving soon. So we checked the flight information, and yes there was a flight arrival at 9.55pm. I think it was at T2, so we went there and waited. Waited for so long, but no sight of them. We met a malay fangirl who was alone so she joined us. Met a few fanboys too who were waiting for A Pink and Beast too hehe. I think I was like the youngest over there. They had their DSLRs and I was like k, why didn't I bring mine T_T There was another flight arriving at 12 or something, and it was just a few metres away, so we waited there... Wait wait wait, still no sight of them.

There was another flight arrival at 1plus, and it was at T3. So we rushed there and there were quite a number of fans waiting there too, so I guess, yes, this should be it. Met Rain (?) (Janghyeonseung) over there. I started taking out foolscap paper (courtesy of Jueyu) and wrote ' 비스트 ' on one side and ' A Pink ' on the other. Hahaha fail fanboard. Then suddenly people started screaming that A Pink was there, but I couldn't find them LOL (fail). And then I saw a group of girls, and it was them!!! And somebody was shouting " OMG YOSEOB AHHHHH " and I was like, " WHAT? FUCK. WHERE?! "

A few seconds later.... I saw them. Right infront of my very eyes. Doojoon was easy to spot because he was wearing a red beanie. Kikwang and his brown backpack. Hyunseung and his dirty green jacket. Yoseob and his mask. Dongwoon and his shades. Junhyung and his..... perfection (hahaha). Oh my god, I was already starting to screammm. They came out in this order: Yoseob, Kikwang, Dongwoon, Doojoon, Junhyung, Hyunseung, A Pink. I had no idea where exactly Hyuna was but she was definitely with them. Rachel was so cute, she shouted Eunji's name and Eunji turned back and waved at her omg!!! And one of the fanboys managed to give one of the A Pink's members the pepero he bought for them. And Rachel was like " OMG SHE TOOK IT " HAHAHAHA. It's recorded in her fancam :P I didn't see Bomi :(

When my camera was shooting Yoseob, I was like shouting Yoseob oppa!!!! But when Kikwang appeared, silence. Because I was really stunned plus he looked damn tired so I was afraid I'll piss him off :/ Yeah, then they went up the van and I ran to A Pink's van. I could see some girls started to running to their stalker vans lol. The last person I saw was Chorong!!! She so pretty. When they were all gone, Rachel and Rain hugged each other while me and Jueyu was like screaming at each other HAHAHAHA.

Slacked in the airport till like 6am and then I took the first train back home;)

Thank you so much Rachel and Jueyu for today. Sigh it freaking felt like a dream. Can't wait to watch MAMA on tv (LOL PATHETIC) later!!!

2011-11-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

Call me crazy, but I am most probably going to wait at the airport tmrw with a few of my tumblr friends to welcome Beast ^^ Their expected arrival is 6am on 29th but I'm pretty sure they'll reach earlier than that :o Who knows, I'm just going to wait and wait and wait. If I don't see them, I'm going to go to the red carpet HAHAHA. I AM CRAZY I KNOW.

Okay bye, pray hard that I'll see them.

2011-11-27T00:45:00.001+08:00

SOMEBARDI, GIVE ME 98 BUCKS NOW TO BUY A CAT 8 TICKET. OH MY GOD I WANT TO SEE BEAST EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE PERFORMING FOR A SHORT WHILE ONLY. I WANT TO SEE THEM I WANT TO SEE THEM I WANT TO SEE THEM.

IDC IM GONNA GO TO THE AIRPORT WHEN THEY ARRIVE!!!!!!! MNET HURRY RELEASE THE FLIGHT DETAILS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ILU BYE.

2011-11-26T01:45:00.002+08:00

" But if there's one saying that they hate you it's like, why do they hate me. What have I done. I can take criticism, I can definitely take criticism. But if it's just a "I don't like you" then I want to know why people don't like me. I've always wanted to be one of those people who didn't really care that much about what other people thought about them. But I just don't think I am. "

- Harry (one direction)

Exactly how i feel right now. Just that your situation is worse, i guess.

Watching one direction videos rn and i really want to spazz about them on twitter too but i know i'm going to receive some nasty comments so whatever, I shall just blog about it.

I love their english accent.

The first two people that caught my eye are Niall and Louis ^-^

2011-11-25T23:40:00.008+08:00

~~lol fuck, you seriously have something against me?~~

~~other people spazz about them, you spazz along.~~

~~i just say a simple thing about them, you bash me.~~

WOW LIFE IS SO GREAT.

why am i even caring???? ugh.

i feel like deleting my twitter, so i won't have to see those mean comments. idk if i'm being paranoid or what but i feel like everyone is scolding me HAHAHAHA. can i just fuckin leave this school and move on to jc/poly right nowwww. lol fuck i feel like an attentionwhore HAHAHAHAHA kbai

meh i wish i had someone to spazz with toooo. everyone seems to be spazzing with someone while i'm over here like.... ilikeyoseob hahahahaha.

and dad bought me a pair of dr martens for the korea trip. ilu dad ♥♥♥

Apink's MY MY is currently stuck in my head ~

2011-11-25T22:30:00.007+08:00

Fan: 요섭아! 사랑해요!!! (yoseob ah, i love you!!!)
요섭: 나도 ~ (me too)

Oh my god, how I wish I was that fan T_______T

Oh and look at Hyunseung creepin' from behind the bottles hahahha.

Anyway, I've got nothing to blog about today, so shall post some pictures

^-^ I can't wait to get my camera.... I hope dad really buys one for me SIGH. I actually don't even mind paying (half) for it :3

Look at Cobi's face here!!! I swear I laughed like mad.

Cobi loves to camwhore too kekeke.

2011-11-25T01:43:00.011+08:00

More pictures before I go to bed!!! Hehe I'm just so proud of Beast. ◕ ◡ ◕

I am fucking proud to be a b2uty - 41 notes currently! kekeke.

OT6 forever ♥
goodnight, xxx

2011-11-24T22:24:00.008+08:00

you know what? just ignore my previous depressing post because i am feeling better now. thanks to those to were concern about me i really appreciate it. at least now i know who are the ones who will always be there for me;) and AT LEAST now i know there ARE people who will be there for me ♥♥♥

and the reason why i'm feeling much better now is because BEAST FUCKING WON THE MELON MUSIC AWARDS 2011, BEST ARTIST AWARD. 비스트 화이팅!!!!!!!

Those people who called them the 'recycled group', you should take back your words now. Beast is one good example of not giving up hope. So what if they had many setbacks previously? They have formed a group together, and have became VERY successful;)

Oh and IU fell when she got up on stage to receive her award. Omg poor girl...

If I were her I'll be freaking embarassed. Hope she's alright!!! T_T

Also, Hyunseung and Hyuna are going to do a collaboration.

This mini album will consist of many genre of songs like dance with Hyunseung’s unique tone and strong rap from Hyunah and also a sensible ballad song. Cube talked about the powerful performance too so…. plz wait to see them in music program.

*It’ll be released on 1st December 2011 ^^

(trans via MOMO92_34)

Okay bai :P

And I am going to Korea at the end of december!!! FUCKYEAH.

2011-11-24T02:54:00.009+08:00

i feel so miserable right now. and yet all these while i've been thinking that my life has been smooth-sailing. well all good things come to an end right? cliche. (haha i don't really know how to use this word in a sentence) i can't believe i'm actually breaking down while typing this. i need to learn to be strong. i need to learn how to stand up for myself, and not depend on other people...

i don't know why, but people seem to not like me. i seriously don't know what have i done wrong. i try my best to apologize all the time, regardless of whether i'm right or wrong. i really, really don't want to make any enemies, i want to be friends with everyone. but people just keep finding faults with me. WHY?

i really cannot take it anymore. i feel like hurting myself. i want to die. i hate my life. i know there are people worse off than me but i really. cannot. take. it. if i wasn't afraid of death, i think i'll probably be dead by now. i'm not strong enough. i want it to stop. but how? when i don't even have the guts to stand up for myself.

the world is a cruel cruel place.

why am i even letting such a simple comment affect me?

rant

2011-11-23T03:05:00.011+08:00

hi im just here to rant about something so you can choose not to read it ^^

i'm really tired of not being able to tweet whatever i want on MY twitter because there are so many judgemental people out there. what i'm trying to say is every single thing i tweet, there are bound to be people unhappy about it, especially when it concerns kpop or in particular, beast.

yes, i only started spazzing about beast this year, when they debuted in like 2009. but what's wrong with that? you mean only those people who have liked them since before they debuted, they are considered as true b2uties? maybe yes, i accept that, but to a certain extent. (however i'm also not saying that those who became fans of beast after they debuted are not true b2uties) being a b2uty sometime after they debut, and being called a casual fan or fake fan or whatever, is that fair to me? shouldn't you be happy that their fanclub is expanding and thus it means that they are growing stronger? i'm sorry but there are many other new fans out there, so why must you pick on me? if i was just a casual fan, i would just spazz about them for a period of time and after that just forget all about them. would i even bother creating a tumblr just for them and buying their albums, spending a hundred bucks on them (like photobook and stuffs) and pasting their posters on my wall? would i even bother watching their shows?

in my opinion, there are no such thing as casual fans. i mean if you appreciate that group/band's music and dancing, and you would really support them, you are a fan. if you don't like them or anything then you're not a fan. fan means fan what got casual one ah. that, is really something that i don't understand. can someone enlighten me?

i just wish people in these fanclubs would just accept new fans and not bash them or anything. i just hate being misunderstood, oh well, who does right? sigh

soccer boy

2011-11-19T21:05:00.003+08:00

so it's been a long time since i've blogged. well that's because i've been very active on my beast tumblr. i've neglected my personal tumblr /: ohwelllll. beauties are really nice people ^ㅂ^ i hope i get to make more friends with beauties kekeke.

^ THIS.

yoseobie played soccer today instead of kikwang, awesumz. seob used to like soccer but then junhyung told him not to use his strength unnecessarily.

(photos aren't mine)

lol @ the last picture. seobie, you should just take it off ^^

anyway maybe seobie is back to soccer? like what dooj said on his twitter.

BeeeestDJ: Yang Yoseob is finally starting soccer Congratulations

(translated by junniecoke)

oh, and LOOK AT THIS,

fuck you man yoseob. why are you sucha sweetie?

okay set i go and change my name to 'beauty' HAHAHAHA.

a picture of dooseob before i go.

Sometimes you gotta act like you don't care

2011-10-17T22:31:00.005+08:00

Taemin why are you so adorable?

B2uty and the B2st

2011-10-16T08:10:00.002+08:00

Today is Beast's second anniversary!!! Hehehe. Okay, although I've only started being crazy over them this year, but I've known them since last year, and they're the one who brought me into Kpop. Now, I've already considered myself at a true B2uty. It really hurt when I knew that people call them 'recycled group'. They have such awesome talents, how can they be criticized that way? But oh well, it's already they second year, and they're still going strong. No wait, make that stronger.

BEAST FIGHTING!!!

The past is the past

2011-10-13T17:08:00.005+08:00

Now playing: UKISS - Baby don't cry & Someday ♡

HEY WHATS UP. EXAMS ARE OVER, FUCK YEAH;)

IT'S TIME TO SLEEP ALL DAY AND PARTY ALL NIGHT.

Physics paper was like WHAT THE FUCK though. I guess that's because I didn't really study enough for it :/ Cuz I was busy reblogging stuffs on my Kpop tumblr. Kekeke. I think I've neglected my Personal tumblr but ohwell. Will update maybe later? :)

Anyway, today's the graduation day for the Sec4s and 5s. Sigh. I'm not really close to most of them though, but I'm glad I got to say bye to some of them ^^ Hehe. Wish them all the best in their O's and hope they'll get into the school of their choice!!!

I didn't get to say goodbye to you though. I'm just satisfied I got to see you for the last time. I really miss those conversations we had and I really regret deleting them. But I'm happy for you cuz I guess you're happy now. I really regret not cherishing every second of our conversation. I wish I could turn back time and tell you how I felt. But its just too late now.

Because of you

2011-10-12T23:32:00.003+08:00

HAI, MY LAST PAPER IS TOMORROW AND I AM SO EXCITED OMAIGOD.

IT'S PHYSICS PAPER BUT I'M ALREADY ACITNG LIKE EXAMS HAVE ENDED LOL.

Anyway, I'm supposed to be studying now, but like I've got so many gifs of Beast I want to share with yalllllll. Hehehe *Fan girl mode switched on* I'm like back to blogging, but how do I get my readers back?!?! My nuffnang is like so pathetic now :( I guess that's becuz my friends have stopped blogging and none of them are using blogger now......

Alright I better make this quick before I get sleepy and go to bed even before I finish my revision teehee :B

So yes, I'm going to post about something random so that I can fill in the gifs ^^

Like one or two days back, I was taking a nap in the afternoon. And then I dreamt of KEY!!! I dreamt when I came back home from school, he was at my house LOL. Random isn't it?! And then he was going to leave, I wanted to have him sign my SHINEE WORLD Dvd but for some reasons I told him I wanted to take a picture with him instead. So my dad went to get his DSLR (HAHAHA) and then by the time he came out, Key went into the lift and left already. I was like crying like mad. And when I woke up, I felt like super depressed.

Ikr, what an awesome dream.

Hahaha okay I think I should stop now, REALLY GOTTA GO STUDY FOR PHYSICS UGHHH. Pray that I'll do well for it, I want at least a B3? :(

OKAY BYE ^^

GAY TTM LOL.

Dogs can haz style

2011-10-11T23:33:00.007+08:00

I was bored..... (K no actually I'm supposed to be studying for Physics!!!)

Centre parting.

Mohawk style.

Bieber style hahahaha.

Cobi looks good in anything ^^ Yeah I know Cobi looks tired. That's becuz he was falling asleep but I insisted that he took a few pictures with me :P Hehehehe.

Anyway...

SAY NO TO ANIMAL ABUSE.

Srsly, fuck those scums who abuse animals. Screw 'em all.

Take off

2011-10-11T16:09:00.004+08:00

So I screwed up my amath paper today. It was FUCKING DIFFICULT. Everyone was like complaining about it after the paper. Seriously, I just want to give up on Amath.

But the good thing is, there's no school tomorrow!!!!! ^^ Although everyone's gonna end their exams while a few of us still have Physics paper on Thursday..... And on Thursday, the Sec4s and Sec5s are gonna graduate T_T The Sec4As are already gone you know?!?! Sigh, this sucks. School is gonna be so boring. And I won't get to see you anymore. Blah why am I still even thinking about you hahaha. I bet I don't even appear in your mind for just one second right LOL.

Alright shall go take a nap now! See you ~

Unwanted

2011-10-10T15:24:00.004+08:00

Currently playing Beast's Fiction and fact album;)

Yoseob, your vocals are the best, everrrrrr.

And yeah, they're not coming after all...

....

History paper's over!!!! FINALLY. And guess what? The chapter on Hitler and Appeasement wasn't combined at all. Miss Khai lied to us... Made us study so much for nothing wtf? So pissed now, grrr. Could have done better!!! And memorizing History caused me to have a pimple outbreak. Freakkk.

Ha, okay, this is just a short update before I go and take a nap!

Amath paper tomorrow, save me :(

/dead

2011-10-10T00:11:00.006+08:00

AM I READY FOR HISTORY PAPER LATER?

Oh wow, awesome.....

History, emath paper 2, amath and physics paper left, AND AFTER THAT, REJOICE!! Hahaha. But after I get my results, I think I cannot enjoy my holidays already....... :'( Okay goodnight, gonna sleep now!! Hehe.

Oh yes... and I forgot to mention that I got this last week!

I hope they'll come out with a Singapore edition too :(

And, I heard that Beast is coming to Singapore on 24th October?! Someone tell me this is true please :(

Genie

2011-10-08T22:05:00.011+08:00

HELLO!!!!!!

Shall make this post interesting by filling it with GIFs.

If you're not rly a fan of KPOP, maybe you shouldn't bother reading this then :/ But I assure you, you will be entertained ~

Kay I think it might be kinda laggy with all the GIFs, but whatever! They're damn cute ^^ Kekeke. Oh no.... I'm turning into a KPOP freak, OOPS.

Anyway I'm supposed to be memorizing essays for History now, ON HITLER. But yeah I guess we need to take like 5 minutes break yeah? So I'm taking a break now ^^ Got to make this quick!!!!

WTF, and Idk why I want to post more GIFs but they keep saying bandwith exceeded or something? Fuck thissssss. /Sob. (Edit: Okay, I decided to remove the photobucket gifs!!) Okay I shall really go back to history nao. 8 essays to memorize and I'm only like done with 4? ZZZZ BYE LOVE YOU GUYS.

Oh yes, visit my personal tumblr & kpop tumblr! Hehehe.

Personal: C-rashandburn

Kpop: xFictionandfact

#SWCSG!!!!

2011-09-12T22:38:00.005+08:00

Wanted to upload the photo I took during the concert but it refused to upload so I have to use this photo that apparently belongs to stomp, I guess. Eh no, it belongs to 'running into the sun and conceptual' hahahaha k whatever.

So yes, I attended the 1st SHINee World Concert together with Shing-E ^^ At first we were really contemplating if we should go as someone was selling the tickets for $200. We're kinda broke so we decided to give it a miss. Crazy right?! Yeah then on Saturday itself, we woke up and saw everyone twitting about SWC being held in SG. So we were really tempted to go. And Shing-E managed to find cheap tickets! Hehehehehahaho. SO FUCKING HAPPY YOU KNOW ^^ However, our seats were kinda far... but anyhow we still attended it! Had THE TIME OF MY LIFE WOOOOOO. Omg they should come again soon, they're really awesome!! :(

Edit: Though I wasn't really into them before, I am now. So keep your comments to yourself. I'm not a casual fan or whatever. Well, I guess I'm proud to say I'm a shawol now :)

I don't deserrve this

2011-08-20T17:56:00.005+08:00

Really disappointed in my chemistry results.... 22/40. However, I failed my overall SIGH. Sometimes I feel that I don't belong in the pure science class. Oh well, since I've chose this path, I shall just do the best to my ability. Just hope that there's still time to improve. Just one more month to the end of years. Blah.

Yet to get back English, Amath, Emath and SS. Hope I didn't fail any of them.....

Easy come, easy go

2011-08-18T16:09:00.002+08:00

Hello!!! Hehehe omg I love B2ST so much. Keep dreaming of them every night hehehe. I'm gnna collect all their albums. So far I hv Fiction & Fact and Shock of the new era! Shall get Mastermind soon ^^ I want their shirt ;( Should I get it? 50bux (includes album) ughhh. Need to consider. If the shirt doesn't fit me then gg. I want to see them so badly!! When are they coming back?!

Munching on Redondo while listening to their album now nom nom...

Last paper tomorrow finally!!! Emath. And I've yet to practice.. Maybe later hehehe :B Aiming to get full marks but you know what? It's impossible for me. Anyway I wanna post up my results, so that next time when I start reading my archives, I'll know how much I've improved, or didn't.

Chinese: 20/40.

History: 20/25.

Physics: 27.5/40.

Fucking angry cuz I just need half a mark for my physics to get A2. Hate Mr Lee :(

Remember all the sadness and frustration, and let it go

2011-08-13T23:40:00.007+08:00

I hate my fking ugly nose, fml

Hello! Just a random post;) I memorized the Reasons to the Rise of Hitler and the Nazi Party already (but not really confident) so I'm here to blog!!! I've another essay to memorize though, and I'm here slacking. KILL. ME. NOW. Ugh, need to stop procrastinating;( This is kinda just a random post hehe. After this imma Tumblr! ^^

Oh yes, I've no idea if my teeth are getting straighter but I hope they are.... Still kinda crooked. I can't wait to smile confidently with my teeth and not cover my mouth when I laugh. I can't wait to get these freaking wires and brackets out of my mouth because they are giving me plenty of ulcers and they hurt. so. much. SIGH. WHY CAN'T I BE PERFECT?

I just don't feel that important to you guys anymore, just what have I done wrong? I've tried so hard, but if it's not enough, tell me how can I change? I'd do anything...

Mystery

2011-08-09T15:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUGUST BABIES!!!

(Rachel Konstance Wenlin Shinge Klarissa Crystal Manfred Yuheng)

Hello!!! Celebrated the above August babies birthday yesterday at Yijie's huge house. BBQ!!! Hehehe. Had a really great time;) Played band hero and all. The food was awesome!!! Usually if I go for BBQ parties, I'll still be starving even after all the food. But this time I didn't, cuz there was fried rice and pasta too!!! ^^ Yay awesome. Would really like to have another class party again soon! This time, I hope the whole class would attend hehehe!!

Lonely

2011-08-07T22:20:00.004+08:00

haiiii!!! went to study at novena's starbucks with mari shingz choox and lyn!!!! ;) can say that it was kinda productive, since i can't study at home. but wasn't really concentrating much. i was like blasting b2st music into my ears!!!!! HEHE. BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAD STARBUCKS! had pontian noodles for late lunch, yums;)

hehe anyway dad surprised me just now with......

my early birthday present from him and mom!!!!!!!!!!! marc by marc jacob wallet/clutch ^^

why are they so nice to me? sigh, i have to be a better daughter. i have to study harddd so i can repay them next time. but why am i so dumb?!?!?! UGHHH.

Fiction

2011-07-16T22:57:00.004+08:00

hullo i shall post some pictures to make up for the days i didn't post ;)

heehee yeshhh i'm wearing the class tee!!! ^^ see, i'm so devoted to my class hahaha. but things in class are kinda starting to get rocky cuz of SOME PEOPLE. but i shall be nice, don't stood to their level;)

sigh, and i don't know why my eyes so weird one? sometimes big, sometimes small. SIAO ALR LA. ahahaha. I HATE MY NOSE TOO AHHHH I SHOULD JUST GO DO PLASTIC SURGERY RIGHT CUZ I SO UGLY LOL KBAI.

2011-07-13T22:39:00.002+08:00

hullllo hehehe. okay i knw i damn long never blog alrd. super lazy pleaseeee ;/ k yeah the recent events were family day? and yeah that's it. OH YES, i got sunburnt. wowwwww. i wanted to get tanned but got sunburnt instead. and you know which part of my body? MY NOSE, WOW. how great is that you tell me? lol. and i itchy hand, go peel the skin. so now my nose has TWO TONES -_- BLAH.

some grp photos from family day;) i luv 3e4!!! muax.

k time to TUMBLR!!!!

maybe it's time for miracles

2011-06-05T21:54:00.003+08:00

Taf camp was awesome! Forgot to take group shot with all the trainers :( I miss camp!!!!!! I miss playing volleyball with the peeps. Freaking fun I swearrrrrr. Next year I'm gonna be a trainer again hehehe :) Well, first week of holidays gone... Training tomorrow SIGH.

braces!!!

2011-05-29T16:59:00.004+08:00

yessss i finally have braces. PINK braces. after like soooo long. but it's really annoying cuz i can't eat properly :( but oh well, STRAIGHT TEETH IN ABOUT 2 YEARS (Y) i think i look kinda weird though.. but better than what i expected!!! hehe.

k one more pic!!!

tired of big fake smiles and stupid lies

2011-05-14T14:23:00.003+08:00

wanted to blog yesterday but blogger was having some maintenance.

okay, so i didnt have paper yesterday (yay MYE ended!!!) and went for my dental appointment - tooth extraction!!! and not just one tooth, but FOUR teeth. gosh you know how scared i was?! but it didnt hurt at all. well except for the injection part. but it felt just like ant bite. anyway i feel super weird now cause i have like four teeth missing...

and i looked like a total idiot yesterday cuz i had some gauze thing in my mouth and i had to walk around bishan j8 looking that way cuz mom needed to do grocery shopping. ha, embarassing much!

i need to cut my fringe :(

Lazy

2011-05-10T15:25:00.007+08:00

my skin looks flawless there.......... :(

no camwhore shots of me today 'cuz i've got a huge pimple on my forehead lol. i need my fringe to cover it but my fringe is fucking screwed!!!!!!! so i pinned it up, ha. okay you know what, i'm supposed to be studying now LOL. OKAY IM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING EVERYDAY.

EVERYDAY I'M STU-DY-ING......................

yeah but i've been studying for like 2 hours already and IM BORED. so decided to come and post something random again hehehe. proof that i've been studying: METAL + ACID = SALT + HYDROGEN MWAHAHAHA AM I PRO OR PRO? I PWN YOU. another one? uhhhh. CARBONATE + ACID = SALT + CARBON DIOXIDE + WATER.

tell me i'm smart ;)

You put on quite a show, really had me going

2011-05-09T23:19:00.003+08:00

hahaha okay i bet you guys are wondering why in all the pictures, my head is like slanting. i'm not acting cute or anything okay!!!!!!!!! it's just that my fringe keeps blocking my eye when i look straight, so irritatinggggg i need to cut my fringe soon!!! :( and y does my fringe seem so grow so fast but my hair doesn't seem to be growing?!?! hah.

yeah okay just being random bye.

Fisheye

2011-05-09T14:24:00.004+08:00

lol okay i'm supposed to be studying now.... IT'S 2.27PM!!!!

sigh photobooth ALWAYS ruin my study plans.

Fading

2011-05-08T22:00:00.003+08:00

yesterday was elections day and after my parents went to vote, they came to fetch me, my brother and grandparents for lunch. was supposed to lunch at tp's swensens but the carpark was full :( decided on jack's place at amk instead. but there was long queue too, argh. so had no choice but to go to the nearest hawker center. pathetic or what :( to make things worse, it was seriously HUMID.

stayed up at night to watch the results for the general election. the announcing part was funny. i really pity the announcer hahaha. why couldn't they get someone else and take turns? bro decided to order macs so i got him to help me order shaker fries ^^ hehe. and i was suffering while eating cuz my teeth was HURTING LYK MAD. yup, and pap won 81 seats while wp won 6 seats!!! sigh, it's really a pity that george yeo lost... he's seriously a great foreign minister. wow, this is the first time i'm so into politics haha. I CAN'T WAIT TO VOTE. but, 5 years later. i'll be 20 years old -_- so i'll have to wait for 10 years before i'll be eligible to vote LOL.

today, stayed at home to study physics ^^ and mom asked me to order pizzahut for dinner. they were unable to do delivery today due to overwhelming orders lol. so tried canadian, same thing. lucky there was pastamania!!! (y) hehe. and i was so nice to be the one talking on the phone, placing the order. but thanks mom for paying!!! (L)

All you are is mean

2011-05-07T22:06:00.004+08:00

yep, i finally got my new specs!!! hehe i'm still kinda not used to it, but i will be soon! BYE NUB WHITE SPECS hahaha. i don't understand why i chose to get white specs last time :( stupid me.

also, i went to the dentist yesterday, hoping to put on braces immediately. but it was only consultation :( i need to extract 4 teeth before putting on braces. SAVE ME!!!!! i'm so freaking scared.. but, i'd do anything for straight teeth!!! and the dentist put some separators between my teeth, feels like food stuck. and ITS HURTS NOW. i can't even chew properly :(

sigh, didn't know need to go through so much pain just to have straight teeth....

enchanted

2011-05-02T22:39:00.005+08:00

this post will be pretty random cuz i'm bored.... (i'm supposed to be studying now tho)

does that look like a real lip tattoo? HEHEHE ^^ kkkkk, i know it doesn't hahaha FAIL. i want one though, it's sooo cool. maybe i'll get one when i'm 17 or something. it wouldn't hurt right? cuz i heard it's only temporary as it will fade of sooner or later!!! k but i still want one. get it for me for my birthday ah thanks :)

and....... i'm gonna change everyone's mindset with this picture below!!!!!

........ k have you changed your mindset? hahahahahahahaha.

okay my point is, why do people want to have thinner cheeks? i mean like LOOK AT MY FACE. i don't even have fats in my cheeks, just SKIN AND BONES. or maybe i don't even have cheekbones...... srsly i think my parents didn't feed me well when i was young :( or maybe i was already very picky with food then (hehe :$) ANYWAY, yes. having a chubbier cheek is much more cuter than having none. i swear. you can go ask every guy on earth. they confirrrrrm agree with me one i tell you :) wouldn't it be cute if they pinch your cheek before they kiss you? HAHAHA. unlike me, they don't even have anything to pinch :( SO SAD IM GONNA GO EMO AT A CORNER NOW.

Via omfgimfallinforyou

2011-05-02T12:18:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, when people are sad, nothing can really bring them back up right away. Simple words, good advice, or even the people around them trying to make them happy can't make them happy just like that. We should never tell someone to just be happy and forget about what's holding them down, because we're not dealing with the pain in their heart. It takes time and patience for someone to get back up. It's not that easy.

This feeling's taking control of me

2011-05-01T22:31:00.003+08:00

I just feel like breaking down again. I feel so weak. Why am I like that? Yeah, I'm just never good enough. I'm just useless. Nobody needs me at all. I'm just a burden. I don't know... I just feel like I'm not needed. Maybe I was meant to be a loner from the start.

I just wish that I've got someone to talk to. Someone to just listen. I don't even need any advice. Just listen to whatever I want to say and let me cry it out. Everyone says they'll be there for you. But at the end of the day? There's no one.

I've helped people countless of times. But when I need help? No one would. Seriously, what have I done wrong?

Pretend

2011-04-30T22:09:00.004+08:00

I didn't study at all today, and I feel so guilty... Guess I'll go study after this blog post. I have to stop lazing around and start doing something useful ;)

Went to visit grandma then headed to J8. Mom went to do grocery shopping while Dad and I went to the Optical shop 'cuz I wanted new spects. Decided to get black frame. At first I really wanted this Paul Frank geekish one,

But the price was too high so yeah, I got a similar one at a cheaper price ;)

Really wanted that Paul Frank one but I'd feel really bad to my Dad. Also, what if it goes out of fashion? That would cause a heartache. Besides, my Dad's finally bringing me to have my braces done this coming Friday. Really can't wait!!! I love you dad! ;) Also decided to get daily contact lenses instead of monthly for Volleyball Trainings. This would help me save alot and also prevent my eyes from getting infection again! Having infection sucks, it's like the whole white part of your eyes would turn red and you'll look like some hideous creature.

Also, I wanna save up to get...

PINK DR. MARTENS!!!

Should I? It's so damn pretty. And pretty things are expensive :(

I just want to get through this

2011-04-29T22:26:00.006+08:00

Have been studying for at least 2 hours each day for the past two days hehehe ;) I gotta start adding more hours though, if I want to get distinctions!!! I hope I won't let my parents down, neither do I want to let myself down. I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!

Had Chinese paper today, luckily, it was manageable! Hope my results will show it too. Teehee. Okay, my life is pretty boring I know. Everyday's about studying.... Hm, so I shall post up some of my camwhore photos HEHE.

Hahahahaha okay my faces are kinda cui. :$ BUT WHO'S GONNA SEE THIS ANYWAY HAHA LOL.

I've stopped believing

2011-04-28T17:39:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's with this pose, but whutever, I'm bored!!!

I made an achievement today. I studied for 2 hours without getting distracted!!! I wanted to take a nap after that 2 hours but decided not to waste my time sleeping hehehe. Maybe if I use the time now to use the comp, later at night I'll study more! ;) Gonna go to the library soon to study, I needa catch up! I bet my classmates are currently mugging, ugh.

Wish me good luck for chinese paper tomorrow!!!

Chinese? What chinese?

When I'm with you

2011-04-26T18:24:00.002+08:00

I feel so frustrated right now. I'm just..... sucha failure in life. I don't belong in this world at all. Seriously, why do I even exist? Seems like I'm just a burden to people around me. I just feel, out of place. Everyone's slowly drifting away from me. I just can't take it anymore.

I feel like I don't fit in my class. Everyone's just so much smarter, and much more hardworking than I am. I'm just, kinda left behind you know. Everyone just has someone to talk to and laugh with. I feel like they don't need me in the class at all. Maybe I'm just an option when they're bored/alone. Sigh... Or maybe it isn't what I think it is.

I've got so many other things to say, but I guess I'll just keep it in. I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings or anything. I just want to pour it out, but I can't. Nobody will ever know.

Everyday I'm shufflin'

2011-04-17T22:38:00.011+08:00

I finally made my blog public!!!

Hope I'll get viewers soon ^^ Anyway, Friday was sports day! ;) And as expected, many people dedicated Friday and Party Rock Anthem. Hahaha. As usual, took pictures with my lovelies!!!

I'm too lazy to upload all the pictures because my iPhoto is screwing up the dates and I have to like look for the pictures. Damn. If you want to see more pictures you can go to my Fb! :)

So yeah, I was really disappointed that I didn't get to participate in any sports event other than Volleyball. Volleyball was sucha waste of my time. I'd rather participate in track events. But oh well, on the brighter side, I've got next year right? Hopefully I'll be able to win something then. And I must get at least Top 10 for Cross Country!!!

Time: 11PM.

BITCH, ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

We can walk away, say we dont need this

2011-04-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

You have no idea how fast my heart races whenever I see you.

And then we'll just walk pass each other.

Without acknowledging each other.

Like we never knew each other.

Like strangers.

I feel alone all the time

2011-03-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

I used to always call you an idiot.

Guess I'll never have the chance again.

'Cause if you jump, I will jump too

2011-03-29T22:27:00.004+08:00

Hahaha guess what? I've yet to make my blog public LOL!!!!!!!! I'm just too lazy :( Yes I know, I think I was a pig in my previous life hahahaha. Okay , I have no idea why I wanted to post? Too bored I guess :/ Have no homework to be handed up tday!!!! Hehe. I know I should be doing revision but..... sigh. Nevermind, I WILL start tomorrow;) No more empty promises!!!

Oh , and I can't stop blogshopping lol. I think I've spent more than 1k already OMG.

Kay , I'm still bored :S BYE.

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying.

2011-03-25T20:23:00.005+08:00

Cross country today. UGH!!! Seriously don't wish to talk about it, but I need to rant, so yeah here's the best place!!! ^^ Decided to keep this space private till I feel like unlocking it ^^ Hahaha. Yeah, so didn't manage to get Top 20 this year, WTFFF. I could have done it, but Idk why did I freaking keep stopping along the way, allowing others to overtake me!!!!!!!!! FUCK. I don't care, I'm going to do better next year. I am going to get top 10. No more top 20!!!;)

It's friday, friday, gonna get down on friday!

2011-03-25T00:13:00.005+08:00

Hahaha Rebecca Black!!!! (y) LOL.

EVERYBARDI'S LOOKIN' FORWARD TO DA WEEEEEKEND!

PARTYING, PARTYING, YEAH!!!

FUN FUN FUN FUN, LOOKING FORWARD TO THE WEEKEND!!!

You made it look so perfect when it wasn't meant to be

2011-03-24T21:53:00.003+08:00

Haiiiiii. I'm so bored right now and I can't be bothered to study :/ Shall wait till the weekends then I'll study! Hehehe. Hmmz, tomorrow's Cross country!!! And that means, school ends at 1115! (y) Hahaha. But this year I'm already in B'div, so will be competing against the Sec4s & 5s. It's gonna be TOUGH!!! SIGHZX. I seriously hope I can get Top 20. But I haven't been running much lately, UGH REGRETS :@! There are like alot trackers, netballers, volleyballers and other fast runners ;( PLEASE I DON'T MIND GETTING 20TH POSITION!!! * prayyy *

Anyway, school has been alright lately. Nothing negative to say about it. BECAUSE I'M A GOOD STUDENT HEHE. And did I mention that there's only about 37 (?) more days to the Mid year examinations? Time seriously passes by damn fast ;( Soon, I'll be sitting for my O'lvl exams next year. Speaking about next year, it will be 2012. I'm seriously afraid the world will come to an end ;( Look at all the disasters happening around the world....... It's getting scary. Okay.. I shouldn't think so much. :/

Also, I know this is kinda late. But.... #prayforjapan!!! #prayfortheworld!!!!!!!!!!

We're the perfect two

2011-03-18T21:52:00.022+08:00

Hi!!! I wanna talk about camp cuz I miss it so freakin much :( I swear camp was fucking awesome cuz I got to scream everyday as much as I want hehehe. I'm so glad for volunteering to be a GL for the sec1 NE camp, and that Mdm Foong gave me a chance ^^ This was totally a great break for me. Sadly, not much pix cuz I didn't bring a camera along with me. Will upload grp photos when they're up on facebook!!! EXCITED.

Firstly, we break the Sec1s into groups.
These are the people in my group ^^ Cannot see? Too bad. I can see can already, hahaha. SIGLAP FTW! ^^ Hehe, and the GLs in my group are me, Hadi, Xin Ping and Bryan! Kay, then got to know the other Swift house GLs which are Yuheng, Nata, Keith, Hui Ting, Wenxuan, Qikang, Vanessa! First Sec1 I got to know is Christopher! He's damn cute :)

Had flag raising. Stood beside Hadi and wtf he talk alot of nonsense. Make me laugh like mad hahahaha. Had breakfast! Chee cheong fun. WORST MEAL EVER. Went to the hall after that to make the group card thing hehe.

Nice right?! Okay, then our first activity is Art! 3 hours of Art, omg. Like boring only hahaha. Swift GLs went to slack outside of the Art room to discuss about our campfire performance. After awhile, we all like not high, so went back into the Art room and sat at the back. Listened to music, etc. Coloured my camp book!

Had lunch after that and then had a briefing by Mdm Foong! Went to ISH after that for some nerf gun thing. The Sec1s play until like damn fun, HAHA. It really is fun! Didn't had the chance to play though :( Then went to performance theatre for some activity. After that, had some extra time, so went through with the Sec1s about campfire performance. For some reason, Weihao was in the theatre. Sat beside him and he also said the cheers, which made me laugh like some idiot. LOL.

After that, had dance in the music room! Mdm Foong said KPOP, but it turned out to be Hiphop instead please?! Hahaha. I realised that I actually kinda like dancing? :/ Hehe. The instructors were kinda hot. Faye wanted their number hahaha. Had dinner and then the Sec1s went to shower. Campfire preparation aft that! Went back to Music room. Blahblah, and bedtime for Sec1s! GLs went to bathe then gathered at the Music room cause we wanted to perform a dance for the Sec1s on the last day. Bollywood dancing! (Y) Went to canteen to slack after that, and Mari stayed over! ^^ Mdm Foong caught her though, but she didn't really scold hehe. Shared sleeping bag with Mari and we were freezing at night! Brrr.

Second day! ^^ Had a walk to Lower Peirce. Freaking boring. The Sec1s had to pick up the litter they see. But it was kinda clean over there! Went back, had breakfast. ROTI PRATA! (Y) Hehe. Then had Traditional games in the hall. Boring ~ Went to Cave 2 after that, Mr Siva talked about Indian Culture. Wasn't really listening, and Hadi slept, FAIL. Went over to Cave 1 where Ms Noor talked about Malay Culture. Went out to practice the dance for campfire performance, and went back in to slack under the aircon ^^ Had lunch after that!

Went to Cave 2 where there was a talk about Civil Defence. The GLs went to canteen to eat mee siam cause we didn't have lunch hahaha. Went to music room aft that where the Sec1s had to bandage each other. Was freeeezing! :/ Went to Cave 1 after that! Fell asleep at the sofa, and Hadi kept waking me up zzz. Had the stupid Civil Defence race in the ISH which I think is really, a waste of time.

Helped with the dinner preparation (I'm so nice keke). Had campfire preparation! The Sec1s had to bring chairs and benches to the parade square. Hehehe, and went into the bomb shelter for the first time!!! Freaking hot inside. And then had the campfire ^^

You know, at first it was raining heavily and the campfire was supposed to be held at the hall. But thankfully, the rain stopped and with the help of the scouts, CAMPFIRE IN THE PARADE SQUARE WITH REAL FIRE YO!

Campfire was awesome I tell you. AWESOME. I went high like some retard. Omfg, miss it so much :( Love the whole performance we did. Hadi's best at leading! ^^ We did the dance, banner cheer, flea fly, baby shark, bumble bee, banana dance (holding real bananas from dinner!!!) (Y) Hehehe. Don't forget the lyrics was great too!!! ^^ After that, had supper and the Sec1s went to shower! Had briefing and then Sec1's bedtime, while the GLs went to bathe! Slacked in the canteen until Mr Siva chased us away :(

Third day! ^^ Flag raising, then briefing for games! Girls played soccer while boys played handball. Hehe, was slacking with Jesslyn and Ryan the whole time. Sang random songs with Jesslyn! Had breakfast, and then went for Chinese Cultural Activity at the library. They folded rabbits! Signed in the Sec1's camp booklets! ^^ Went for Indian Cultural Activity at the hall. Some did rangoli (coloured rice thing) and some did folding/cutting paper stuff! Hehe. Had Malay Cultural Activity at Atrium. I have no idea how to explain this activity :S LOL. Ate lunch after that. (Last meal!!!!) :( Went to hall for NE Quiz. Someone kicked Siglap's rangoli thing. FUCK THAT PERSON MAN, FUCKING JEALOUS BASTARD/BITCH. Alright, had area cleaning! Went back to hall for prize presentation and guess what???

SIGLAP WON FIRSTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHA FUCKING AWESOME, SCREAMED LIKE HELL. FUCKING UNEXPECTED PLEASE. I don't care if people think it's favoritism or whatever, WE WON FAIR AND SQUARE. Second was Sembawang and third was Hougang!!! Hehe. SWIFT \m/! Okay then GLs performed for the Sec1s. DAMN FUNNY (Y). Took group photos and... END OF CAMP! :'(

Hahaha okay those pictures of me is damn random. Just didn't want the post to look too wordy!!!

I ♥ CAMPS!

Fucking perfect

2011-02-26T22:25:00.007+08:00

Taylor swift, you are awesome. ♥

Hiii! Went out today with MQES :> Met them at Hub and took bus to NEX. Wasn't really crowded today, unlike the other times I went there. (Y) M bought her tongue studs, Q pierced her third piercing. Saw Peirceans working at Macs ^^ Had lunch at KFC. Blahhh, then took train to Novena. Went to United Square, Q got her Made in Candy for someone. Saw Louis working as some sales person for some Jellyfish chair thing. His hair like long & curly only. LOL!!! Went home after that ^^

I really feel like I'm losing you.

I never told you

2011-02-21T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hellohello :> I've no idea why I locked my blog, and I've no idea why I don't want to unlock it. Hehehe. Anyway, I guess I just prefer some privacy at the meantime... /: Have been posting emo posts and I really hate it. I just can't stop thinking about the past. FML.

I miss everything about you... I never had the chance to tell you how I felt about you. Dammit.

Just a dream

2011-01-30T15:08:00.004+08:00

Everytime I see you on my list of online contacts, I really wished I had the guts to start a conversation with you. Sometimes I would even pray, that you'll start a conversation with me. But obviously, it will never happen. If we were to rewind time back to 7 months, yes, there would have been a possibility. But 7 months of not talking, everything changed. It's been a torture, I swear. After so long, I should've been able to forget you, but no. I haven't. I thought I did, but actually, I was living in self-denial. I really missed those conversations I've had with you. Even though I've deleted them, I still remember every word that you said.

~~Every night before I fall asleep, I think of you.~~

~~Every morning when I wake up, I think of you.~~

~~Every time I had a dream of you, I wished it was true.~~

~~What must I do to make you start talking to me again? If we were to start talking, it would be really awkward. 7 months is a really long time.~~

~~Sigh, this is just all my wishful thinking. I'll never be good enough for you.~~

2011-01-09T18:39:00.001+08:00

I'm just a fucking loner.
I hate my life. I fucking hate it.

Please don't go

2011-01-08T19:05:00.007+08:00

So, my maid left yesterday while I stayed back in school to do some shit. Wait, let me rephrase. I stayed back in school to do NOTHING. Absolutely nothing. They didn't need us at all. I could have went to send my maid off. Fuck. So I was feeling fucking pissed, hence I didn't talk much.

Reached home and I cried so hard. My maid has been with us for nine fucking years. I really miss her alot. I could tell her just about anything (well, except for stuffs about love). I told her about my complicated life. Friendships, school, everything. She would give me advice whenever she could.

I regret. So much. For not cherishing her the past few years. And only cherishing her when she's going to leave. I shouldn't have shouted at her. I shouldn't have ignored her. I shouldn't have done anything to have hurt her. I'm sorry.

I didn't even know how to say goodbye to her before I left house for school yesterday. I wanted to ask her to take a picture with me, I didn't dare. I wanted to hug her, I didn't dare. I wanted to tell her thanks for everything, I didn't dare. All I ever did was say bye and walked off crying, and she told me not to cry. End.

You might think I'm being over-emotional or immature but fuck you. You have no idea how it feels at all. I keep telling myself that she's just a maid. But she is NOT just a maid. She is like a FAMILY. I will never be able to find someone like her again.

Hopefully, she'll come back to visit.

It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you

2011-01-06T18:27:00.003+08:00

So the first few days of school are pretty alright. I'm quite satisfied with my teachers and seating places. I really hate my seating place in history lessons because I'm with like people I don't really talk to. Sigh! Nevermind, I can live with it :)

My maid (who's been with us for like 7 years?) will be leaving like, tomorrow? I'm pretty much upset about it. She's like a sister to me, like a best friend. And once she goes, I doubt she'll come back to work again. I might not be able to send her off too because I have to stay back in school tomorrow. SIGH :'( I don't really like my new maid, how! :(

Waiting outside the lines

2011-01-04T18:34:00.003+08:00

First day of school, was an utter waste of time man. All we did was listen to talks that are repeated every year. Yesss, we know the rules already. It's our 3rd year in this school hellooo? :( And tomorrow, hell starts. We've to bring our books according to the timetable, and I'll be bringing like a pile of books. HEAVY. I need a locker so badly :(

K so this post is all about how sucky the first day of school was. But I'm sure every other day would suck even more. Sigh.

I would catch a grenade for you, but you won't do the same

2011-01-03T23:44:00.004+08:00

Haiii! I'm greeting you and sighing at the same time.

Why? Because school reopens tomorrow like whatthefuckchickennuggetsSAVEME. It's like going back to a fucken hellhole which I have been going for like, 90% of my life? Yes, school is important. Because we need to learn. Because we need to qualify to get a job when we're older. Because we don't want to be a hobo (Ha ha tumblr). There may be 100 reasons why we should go to school but there's also a 100 reasons why WE DON'T LIKE TO GO TO SCHOOL.

Okay know what, I should stop ranting because it's just pointless. Nothing's ever going to change the fact that we go to school tomorrow. So yup, this marks the last day of holiday.

Bye.

Baby you're a firework

2011-01-02T13:03:00.053+08:00

Hai! K, I know I'm like one day late but,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Gosh, I seriously can't believe that it's actually 2011 already. I hope everything will be different, and better. Well, this is what everyone always hope every year but the fact is, nothing's gonna change. We'll still go through all those shits and all we have to do is get back up when we fall. Oh well. Life's never perfect.

So I spent the last day of 2010 with Marilyn and Enqi. I wouldn't say that it was actually a great celebration, but at least I wasn't stuck at home watching the countdown on television. This year I swear I'm going to get tickets for the countdown party hehe. Or at least get more people to partay! :) Anyhow, we went to Clarke Quay, some museum which we got in for free, some place near the countdown party, Raffles City and Marina Barrage.

I took like 10000000 years to upload these pictures. Too lazy to upload all, hehehe.

Anyway after everything, we walked to Marina Bay Mrt. Took train to Habourfront as we wanted to go Sentosa. But the monorail closed already. So we were stuck at Habourfront until 3am plus :( Decided to call my brother to come and fetch us home. And yay he did! Awesome brother :) Yup, and they stayed over at my house. Reached home, I knocked out.

BYE.

Crash and burn

2010-12-28T22:54:00.003+08:00

I'm blogging because Denise wants me to, hahaha. Alright, just wanna talk about todayyy! :)

Went to Northpoint with Denise and Lynette to get school shoes ^^ After going from Yellow to Heritage Hub to Yellow to Heritage Hub, Lynette decided to get Everlast shoes. Denise wanted too but didnt have her size :( So headed back to Yellow! Heehee. Me and Denise got vans! Gosh we're broke now. Decided to go to Funan to look for Jansport bags. The train ride there was hilarious. Someone spilt fish soup I think?! Or was it pee, im not sure. Then this girl boarded the train and she was like, " Why got fish soup smell?! " LOL!!! Anyway didn't manage to find any nice bag!!! :( So went to look at cameras. Hehe. Went to this budget shop at peninsula. LOL.

Kay then went to Raffles City. Omg the shops there are like (Y) only. Broke people (like me) don't belong there! Hehe. And I swearrrr, the first ever bag I'll ever get when I start working is CHANEL. Heh heh. Went to Best Fries Forever, ate Macho Cheese. AWESOME. Lynette was so funny, her reaction was (Y) when she dropped the fork on her leg. Headed home after that. The train ride was great too hehe. And the train was like PMS-ing, kept stopping. K that's all.

I NEED A FREAKING BAGGGGGG! :(

And, I'm craving for BFF'S MACHO CHEESE HEE. K BYE.

Maybe

2010-11-23T01:31:00.006+08:00

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.

I really feel like going back to blogging. Maybe just a private blog, and use it as my diary. I'm too lazy to go and buy a diary, no money!!! At least blogging is free. Onoz, my schl influenced me to become budget!!! Hahahahaha. Well... I just can't seem to find things to blog about anymore. Because everything that I want to say, can be reblogged on tumblr. Saves me the time to type a post. Ahhh, I'm a very very lazy girl.

Hmm.. What have I been up to lately? I've been watching Friends. It's a really great show. I'm already at Season 7. I wanted to continue watching, but then my funshion crashed. Fuckit. So I guess we all know why I'm blogging. IM BORED. Zzz. This year's holiday is pretty boring. I guess it's because I don't get to go for a holiday overseas :( But there's really nothing to do here in Singapore!!! Or maybe it's because, I just don't know how to enjoy my holidays. SIGH.

I really can't wait for school to start. Funny huh? It's like when there's school, you can't wait for the holidays. But things are going to be different for me next year. I'll be in a different class, with different people. I hope I won't be a loner, hah. Anyway, I took double science. I'm afraid I won't be able to cope, but no harm trying right? But I bet I'm gonna be like last in class or something. Those who are taking double pure are super smart people :(

I'm to lazy to continue this blog post....

Kthxbye.

Like we used to

2010-10-13T23:16:00.004+08:00

The best way to hide all your misery,
To stop causing people to worry,
To stop being a burden to others,
Is to stay strong, pretend you're fine, and smile.

Don't just assume

2010-10-01T23:43:00.002+08:00

* Sigh.. exams are just round the corner and ive yet to do any preparations. This is why I fucking hate myself. I always promise myself that I will start my revisions early. In the end, it's all just empty promises. Why can't I just fucking stop procrastinating, for god's sake.

What's the point of regretting after getting back our result slips? If we can't take disappointments, why not just study hard so as to do well in the examinations?

It's easier said than done.

2010-09-07T00:45:00.007+08:00

I remember the first day I noticed you. It was a love at first sight, which many would not believe in. But, I decided that I had to get to know you better. As I'm someone who lacks of courage, it took me a long time to start to talk to you. Many things happened before that though. After getting to know you better, I started falling deeper for you each time I talked to you.

From strangers, we became friends. However, I was the one who always had to start a conversation. I admired myself for that. Talking to you was a blessing. I was contented.

From friends, we became good friends. We could talk to each other just about anything. You even started conversations. You made me feel like I was important. I felt like I was the happiest girl on earth. Many things happened, it's impossible to type it all out. I can just summarize how I felt with one word. Happy.

All good things come to an end. I started getting my hopes high, hoping you would start every conversation. Thus, I stopped and let you take the initiative instead. I shouldn't have done that. We started drifting. I regret it so much, but what can I do? From talking almost everyday, it became like, every weekend. And finally, maybe once or twice a month?

Our last conversation, it barely lasted an hour, not even half.

So what. Are we like, strangers now?

All I want is to be able to talk to you.
I wouldn't dare ask for more......

But anyway, thanks for the memories.

Weak

2010-09-05T23:50:00.004+08:00

I've a tumblr :>
C-rashandburn
Click & follow!

Second Chance

2010-08-28T00:04:00.007+08:00

Went to watch the YOG volleyball finals on the 26th of this month. Had to give school a miss because it started at 9am in the morning. It was really a fucking great experience and I can't get my mind off it. I can't believe it. First ever YOG. Held in Singapore. And I managed to catch the finals. O.M.G I can't get my mind off #6 from Argentina (men team), he fucking looks like Zac Efron! Hahaha. Didn't manage to take a picture with him. Fucking depressed. But I found his picture!

He's the one hugging #12 from Cuba. Hahaha. Hot or not?!?!

I'm upset over Argentina's loss, the scores were daaaang close! But Cuba deserved to win because they are really fucking awesome..

Sorry for all the vulgarities btw.

My tix has the signature of Tiffany Morales from USA!!! Whooo.

Anyway, have I mentioned that the players are fucking TALL?!?!?! How I wish I could be like them, ughhh. But its alright, I still have time to grow. Girls stop growing at the age of 18. I STILL HAVE FOUR MORE YEARS. WHOOOO.

I've ran out of words. All I can say is. YOG. Is. Awesome.
Oh, anddd, Russian guys are cute ^^

Cautious

2010-08-20T18:30:00.005+08:00

Finally the end of Common test. What's comin' up next is EOYs and gahhh, this year's the streaming year for us!!! Which means next year, everyone will be seperated and be in different classes. I wonder which class would I end up in. The smartest class? Not a chance /: At most I'll end up in the average class. Hahaha, pathetic. But it's alright.

Guess I'm gonna flunk today's science paper cuz I had to do lit homework yesterday and didn't have much time to study for it. Fuck lit. Buuut, I got kinda high for the latest lit test. Unbelievable. However, I will NEVER take lit. I'm sure I'll do better for humanities.

Hah, enough about studies. Qingwei, Shingzx and Sindy came over after school to bake cookies. Apparently, the cookies were kinda failll haha but still edible k! :> Goshzx, then after that they watched Love Matters (hahaha) and Shingzx I know you're supa happy now!! ^^ LUCKY YOU.

Sigh, it's been nine days.. and just two more months til' I (maybe) won't see you again.

Pretence

2010-08-13T20:39:00.004+08:00

Oh nooo!!! This is terrible. I'm going to become fat due to the overconsumption of sweets and chocolates! This isn't the way I want myself to gain weight! :< It isn't healthy at all. Sigh, I think I'm going to get diabetes hahaha goodluck klarrrrrissa.

Hahaha almost everyone gave me sweets/chocolates for my birthday. I've got a biiig jar of Made In Candy (MIC) sweets, six bars of hershey chocolates (left five now!), a bar of crunchie (which I ate just now!) anddd a bar of cadbury booooost! I brought the MIC sweets to school and shared with luvlies and its now left with half a jar!!! Also, I think I ate too much just now that I had sugar rush and then Enqi refused to give it back to me :< But of course after whining, she returned it back to me!! :> YAY.

K I gotta stop myself from having MORE!!!

Bulletproof

2010-08-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

Awesome 14th birthday! :>

Kay, it wasn't all that awesome due to certain stuffs. But it was also awesome due to certain stuffs lah! Okay this doesn't make sense at all! :/ But you should get what I mean. Hahah thanks everyone for their wishes and gifts! :> I never knew my birthday would turn out like this! Thought I will be some kind of loner :B HEHE.

Alrighttt, few minutes to 11:11! BYE!

Existence

2010-08-09T02:16:00.000+08:00

Hey there!

Yep, I've decided to start blogging again. Changed my layout and everything. I also deleted my previous posts! Life's so complicating right now. It's been long since I've started blogging about it, and loadsa things have happened, it's impossible to type them all out now. TOO LATE! So yeahhh, brand new start k!

Will update again some other time, nights luvlies! :>